Wednesday, June 17
♥ craptalk
there's been times where depression happens .. sadness and tears ... annoying and irritating moments... hoping to run away and hoping to forget everything. .wanting to lay down on the grass in the middle of nowhere and just look up at the sky..the moon.. and the stars... going to a beach .. an empty one ... shouting my hearts out.. shouting my desires and my resolutions... then sitting down.. there's so many things i want to do, but yet ... it hasnt happened.. im still waiting .. yes i am .. i will ... sometimes i feel like dying , but is it worthit .. to do it now .. to leave everyone behind. .. what will they feel .. what will they think.. will anyone care ... thats the questions .. those are the questions ...in just one day, i would like to be able to enjoy every minute .. of that particular one day ... am still waiting for that someone to step into my life and make me feel ....... feel something ... no, positivity does not work ... being positive all the time is bullshit .. i know it might be helpful at times.. but in reality.. everything has two sides .. there is always two sides of a story ... the shoutings of a mother ... and a father .. can seem so nothing, so little to them.. but actually leaves a mark on the kids .. leaves a printing .. leaves a scar ... the words from their mouth... to the ears of the children... to the hearts ... it hurts .. its painful .. but what can you do about it?........ when i try to get a lonely quiet moment .. i cant.. there would always be someone saying my name .. calling it out .. its annoying... you may not find it annoying .. may find it fun or whatever you may call it .. but not until it happens to you .... in an empty field, i lay across the green wet grass, looking up onto the sky with thoughts wandering everywhere ..... ooooooh a bird.ps. * i like this foto ... on top .. i took it =) i dont know why .. i just like it ...
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